ReFolutionair: September 2006

Let the wind blow

The wind blowing over a Dutch beach. (I believe it's Schiermonnikoog, but I could be wrong).

I've had a few people asking me to write some more about my experiences in Minnesota. And I'm very sorry I haven't been able to communicatie all that. It has been too much, really... I've been thinking about a way to communicate it... and I can only think of this picture.

Do you know that feeling;
a storm surrounding you, yet it feels you're not a part of it;
the wind is blowing, and you're standing in the midst of the storm...
...silent.
That's kind of how I'm feeling lately.
Lot's of things are happening,
many people are expecting God to DO great things in this country, DOING things...
and I don't seem to go anywhere, not even getting exited.

It doesn't feel like some devine kind of peace...
...just like a lot of things are happening... and I've learned so much in Minnesota -
many thoughts and "could haves - should haves - would haves" run through my mind -
and I become more silent.

It feels like I'm re thinking what It is that I'm living for. Am I really living for God, or for the money, myself, recognition. Am I really driven by His love in my daily life, or by (churchly) strivings, fears and spiritual appearances.

It blows me away and makes me stand silent at the same time.

picture from www.jeppehoman.nl

NEMO

You'd say,...
What do these pictures have to do with... anything?!
Well... let me tell you
They saved my day last Friday.

This is a (rather blurred) image of the fish bowl.

At work... in the room next to me, they have a fish bowl,
And last friday

I took some pictures...
I happen to have my camera with me
And joy oh joy...
It was very good timing because...

One of the men working in that room was
cleaning the bowl and
BEHOLD! There was a guppy!!!

It really made my day. :-D
Maybe you can recognise it on the third picture here, by clicking on it. Since it was kind of hard to make a clear picture, I added
a small arrow so you know where to look for

More relevant entries coming up ;-)

Slow to speak, so to speak

Haven't got the time/energy/inspiration to post until now. After my rather tumultuous holiday,

with lifechanging truths, and life&death-issues to digest,
I was actually affraid to go to work again.
I know work won't kill me(quite the opposite), but I was more and more concerned if I could ever be of any worth to this company.
I prayed intensely the last sunday of my holiday, and prayed on my way to work on mondaymorning.

It turned out to be one of the best weeks at work I've had so far. I had fun, I've had the opurtunity to do a lot of programming-work.
Got some positive feedback here&there.

Saturday was such a beautiful day, that I went for a walk through the woods nearby together with one of my roommates.
This is one of the pictures I took
The end of the summer/beginning of fall can be beautiful...

YESTERDAY....
7 people got babtised in the swimmingpool near our church.
This is one of the pictures I took. It's so awesome when people surrender their lives totally.

Col 2:12
...you were buried with Him in [your] babtism, in which you were also raised with Him [to a new life]

And usually I'm laughing and shouting loud on occasions like this... but It was all silent in my heart. It has been that way for over a week now, like I'm more aware that God is God; He Is Holy; He is not some toy to play with on sundaymornings and have a good time with.
He is THE HOLY ONE
And that makes me (just a bit) more silent...

No place to hide

Good readingfood!
Take a minute to read
the following entry:

Just your average revolutionary: No place to hide

More pictures

Last Saturday - my last day - we went out for a picknick... and here is a family standing in a small stream which is the actual beginning - spring - of the great mississippi-river

Luckily there were a few girls around my age. We were happy to spend time together.

Do you - Steve, Dan, David - recognise these girls? They came from fire and knew all of you. So it clicked. weird to have mutual friends overseas.
Besides the amazing teachings that were all together huge revelations... I'm going to miss this:

Sitting in the dining hall with 70 people... sharing food AND our lives... Having breakfast together after a prayermeeting. Sigh.
Two French guys. I'm going to miss their joy. Whenever they entered a room, they'd make me smile just because they were smiling.

On Fridaynight the three of us skipped just one meeting to watch the sunset
It was worth it :-)