Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Friday, September 30, 2005

Whole meal bread!!!

Today: Got a nice chair from a the studentchurch-pastor... in the same way that I got my bike from Robin. Yesterday my father came to see my room in Zeist, to have diner... As I was just summarising God's provisions for me during the last weeks, he was surprised. And so was I actually. Just sharing all the things made me believe more and more that God takes (GOOD!) care of me! It made me so happy!

He knows me so well. He knows the things I love, I hate, I enjoy... the petitions of my heart even if I do not speak them out loud.

Right now, I'm at school. My essay was good enough to graduate, so that's a relieve, BUT... I just got like 10 points/questions that I should deal with in my presentation in order to graduate with a nice grade.
With that... There's another job-application running... and a cry for wisdom in social contacts... and some things I'd rather not share right now.

And all that has brought me to this day... this day that the Lord has made...
So that I might rejoyce and be glad and be still and know that He is God...

was I just preaching to me?

I wanted to nag about how tired I was this morning... haha...
I'll just go home, make some fresh coffee, buy some whole-meal-bread and share my heart with my Heavenly Father instead of you all. =)

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

They that wait upon the Lord....

People... I'm really tired... there are a lot of things going on at this moment...

But one thing is really really positive: I'm aloud to give my final presentation!!!!
which means that the teacher at my school thinks my final essay is good enough for me to graduate!!!

oktober 13th I'll have this presentation...

But at this moment, I'd rather have energy, than this great news that I'll probably graduate the 13th.
Well... They that wait upon the Lord... they shall renew their strength

Monday, September 26, 2005



Right after this intense week of study... I had an intense weekend at You-nity. It was near Doetinchem. In the east of Holland... Near Germany actually.

I couldn't possibly get all the experiences of this weekend in one entry.
The great thing was... striking... the unity.

How gossip and critisicm have made the church in Holland sick and ineffective. And how God is raising His people up to be one, to be His people.

I guess the average age was 16. But there were a lot of young people around 12 years old as well. And they were hungry for God, going after Him and having His wisdom. I was amazed and very glad to see that. I always believed that God especially uses teen-agers to be powerful for Him. Change nations by loving Him, by knowing they're loved by Him.
1 John has some good verses about God's gifts for teen-agers. But in the bible a few kings were 16 and 17 and 18 years old. Maria was young when she gave birth to Jesus.

There is something powerful in young people and God loves it so much, because He has made young people powerful like that. It s a power that sais: I know I'm loved by God, Jesus died for us all, we all believe in the same Jezus, so lets stop the $#@&#* and let His will be done.

This is not a christian bless-me party-club.
God is raising this army of young people... and He is Mighty

Besides that.. I met some great people... I had a good time with three girls from my church (Natasja, Nikita and Lisa) and a lot of people that Natasja already knew. It was great to see Natasja step out in the thing God called her to do (this weekend, but also in the future) To teach about dance and to dance.

Friday... Saturday... had some good seminars... About the gifts of the Holy SPirit and identity in CHrist. Yesterday afternoon we had the last meeting. We had a dance to show (which was fun to do) and after that, we started praising... and all I could think of was David... David being a man after God's heart. And my prayer at that moment was... to be a woman after God's heart.

Well after singing a few songs, a woman came up and started to share something. Ones she started talking (she only spoke three words or something) I started crying. I don't know why, I asked, but still don't know. There was no conviction of anything, no tangible things going on in my heart at that moment. It didn't even feel like I needed some underlying stress to get out...
I just cried.
The only thing I know is that it was God, and it was somehow liberating and it was very good to be there at that moment.

At 6pm we were all having a after-you-nity-weekend-moment at Mac Donalds. We just had fun.

I just had a good time there. =)

Friday, September 23, 2005


YES YES Yes....
Yesterday my final essay came out of the printer...
This morning I went to school to get the 70 pages binded...
I just know that I know that I know, that God helped me with every page I wrote. What a relieve....

Well... it ain't over till it's over...
Next week I'll hear if this essay is good enough. Which meens I am aloud to give a presentation.
If my essay is good, and that last presentation is good... than I'll get my diploma...

Exiting weeks

Thursday, September 22, 2005

to let you know what is on my mind...

Getting to Know Me
By way of Pilgrim’s Scribblings

Because I liked reading the answers of others...
and 'cause it 's a way to tell something about myself... without being afraid of what you might think of that...

5 things I hope to do before I die:

1)Become the person God intended me to be, and to fullfill my purpose in this life. (How could I NOT want that)
2)Get married
3)Let all teen-agers in the Netherlands know that God, His Word and prayer (spending a lifetime with Him) is exiting and not boring at all.
4)Start a bible school... or be a part of one.
5)I hope to graduate... learn to trust God 100%

5 things I can do:

1) Play guitar
2) Dream, picture things that people tell me
3) Wake up early to make breakfast
4) Be very enthousiastic about things I read in the Bible
5) Enjoy monday-mornings

5 things I cannot do:

1) Be quick
2) Hide my emotions
3) Drink coffee with a lot of sugar and like it
4) Listen to ... heavy metal and like it
5) Reach my nose with my toungue (but Praise God... all things are possible for those who believe)

5 things that attract me to the opposite sex:

1) Humor
2) Enthousiasm
3) A love for people (teenagers especially)
4) Encouraging (me) by the way he acts and speaks
5) Looks... (It's very important he does not remind me of barbie KEN)

5 things I say most often:

1) "Echt"
2) "Grutten"
3) "Glorie"
4) "Minder fijn" instead of *@#&$
5) ehm...

5 most important books you’ve read: (I'll just name the last ones I've read)

1) The Bible
2) That book from Brother Andrew... what was it...
3) De strijd om je hart
4) Straighforward, ehm... names... names...
5) Face Down, Matt Redman

Tuesday, September 20, 2005


I ate broccoli yesterday...

This morning I read in James...
I was not totally awake yet, but the verses below striked me.
James was so clear about what dead religion is, and what real religion is...

Jam 1:22 But be ye doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving your own selves.

Jam 1:27 Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, [and] to keep himself unspotted from the world.

Monday, September 19, 2005


Day one is coming to an end...
and coffee has lost all impact on me
I need vegetables... carrots or something
and a small miracle for my final essay

Ooohw right... the Truth...
Trust in, Lean on, Rely on the Lord
Just writing that makes me feel much better

Morning dew

7.15 am I was already on the bus... early, yes...
To start this new week of writing my final essay.
The thought of finishing my study on oktober the 14th makes me feel exited.

So did the view that I had (right before I fel asleep in the bus again)
I do not have a camera, so I tried to find you all a picture that would give you an impression...
It's the sweet "after-summer-autumn-polder-early-nice-sweet-sunrise-morning-dew"
I think this picture is actually a tipical wintermorning, but it's just as close as I could find.
These are the moments when I look forward to start my day, and love the Lord for creating this country. It's at these moments that I love the mornings in the Netherlands more than anything and have a deep desire to stay here until Jesus returnes.

so... for now... I finished my first cup of coffee at school...
I take my second, yawn, stretch out... open Word...
and see where God takes it from there ;-)

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Dreams and desires

Yesterday, I had to catch a bus from Zeist back to "hotel mama" Sliedrecht. I had such a great time having diner with my housemates. And I talked to Alette for a while about the desire for a revival in the Netherlands and the prayer to have the same desire for it, as God has. And how we could start to make a difference just in our street in Zeist.
And I went upstairs just to pack my bag. But started to sing and pray to God instead. It was quite funny... just having a good time together with God, but in the back of your mind thinking: "Lord, not now, I want to catch a bus". Hehe... luckily God is there when I'm on a bus. I was just filled with joy and a fresh desire to see God move in my neighbourhood.

This morning I woke up with the simple thought: "We could (as housemates) just start to pray together every week." To seek God for this all. How can we reflect a God that we do not know... to know Him, to spend time with Him, to have an intimate relation with Him is still more important than anything. And the lyrics of this song popped into my mind:

I guess silence is not an option at this stage
I've been comfortable too long now, turn the page
I see shadows all around me
But to me it's proof of Your light

Show yourself to me, so I can show you to them
Give me what it takes to let me go
There's a world out there that's dyin'

Father please forgive them
For they know not what they do
Father won't You show me how
To have working man hands

You said if you love me you'll obey me, I've wondered why
You gave Your life for those around me, so should I
God forbid that I should stand before You
On that day, with unblemished hands


Does the country where you live decide which dreams you have

Friday, September 16, 2005


To draw you a picture of the last couple of days...

Tuesday: applied for a job. This day was the second round. Didn't get the job... I felt relieved actually. Didn't feel rejected at all. I DID get lots of insights in what I am really looking for in my future. It felt like God helped me to get to this second conversation, just to let me see, that I could really go for a job in the roudn of education. God told me before, but this day He reminded me of His plan for my life.

Wednesday: school school school... writing writing writing... on my final essay. every day starting with: I won't rely on my own wisdom/knowledge, but I rely on God...

Thursday: yesterday that is...
that day was just fine. I started with this simple prayer: God help me out with my study... and fill me with joy.
The day started with a simple mistake that made me loose everything I worked on Wednesday... I just couldn't be bothered... believe me... just a few months ago this would have freaked me out, but it didn't. Praise God.

I stopped at 3pm, to catch a train to Leeuwarden. Robin left her bike at Nynkes place for me to get it. So that why I went there. I ended up having diner at the Fakkel and enjoying Steves bible study (studying again). It was great.
[you can read about it here.]
It's very encouraging to meet these people. I plan on visiting Leeuwarden more often. But first: Settle in Zeist!

So today: Friday Aplied for a job in Zeist, the conversation was good. And right now I'm at school again. I go home within a few minutes, to have diner with my two housemates: Jiska and Alette. I'm blessed living with these two girls.

Monday, September 12, 2005


I just have to share this joy...

I asked the Lord for a few things that I (think I) really need,
but didn't ask for this: thermo - coffee - mug - thing
though it was on my wish-list since summer-school (inspired by Dan)

This weekend I was just joining my mother to this second-hand-shop... I found this mug for € 0,80-
I'm quite sure it hasn't been used... (until now)

Striking how small things like this can make me so happy...
Not because of the mug... I could easily live without it, but because... coffee tastes so much better now.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005


Just to keep everyone informed...

This evening will be the end of my first week living in Zeist.
I live in the centre of Zeist now... with two christian girls. Yesterday I was preparing diner... and thought: I've got too much vegetables for me alone... Right at that moment one of the girsl called me "Ehm... I'm too tired to make diner, could I join you?"
Haha... perfect timing!
Well, we ate and talked and talked...

It's so good for me to be able to share my faith.
To know that I could always knock on a door to ask for prayer.
God knew what I needed when He arranged this room for me.

One thing I said: To me it's difficult to trust God to help me out with the things I have to do for my study. Because these things are so earthly...
...quite a twisted view on this truth: God is my Helper!!!

Saturday, September 03, 2005


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